Gratitude, a Top Ten

10. The show Parenthood because it makes me laugh and cry. 9. Pets who sleep at my feet when I watch Parenthood. 8. Steamed milk with agave and vanilla. 7. All the plays my mom directed when I was a kid. They give me songs to sing when I need to clear my head. 6. My...

The Pain of Memory Lane

Today, I have been driving, walking, talking through a lot of loss. I am in a place I used to live, and for me, place is so central. It’s wonderful to be visiting and oh so painful. I am not a person who likes things to end. For some, I think change is hard; not...

Organic Milk, Fondue, and Bacon

Tonight, I am staying with my friend K. She and I were roommates, and she has become one of my dearest friends. I was so excited to spend some time with her this weekend. Then, I opened her fridge and started to cry. She has stocked her fridge with my favorite foods....

Grief into Grace

Tonight, my friend Shawn Smucker said, “Andi, I am so happy for you, and I am so sad for you.” I looked at him, smiled, and said, “Thank you for saying that. That’s exactly how I feel.” Mom’s death leaves this massive, gaping hole...